Nutrition

I might be getting myself a coach, an nutritionist. They're going to give me some advice in nutritional things. I don't know exactly if they're just about to email me some info or if they want to give me an exact plan to follow: What to eat and how much etc... I don't know if I'm comfortable with someone else telling me to eat or not to eat something. It's only something like 2 months, so I think I could try.

My pro-ana-experiences have made it difficult to myself to count calories and check the ingredients... I'm kind of scared, what if I lose control again when I start to notice how much sugars and fat I'm taking into my body?

They also told me that they'd like to follow my weight at the beginning and when we're finished. That's a thing I'm afraid of too: I haven't known my weight since I recognized it's not the way I feel healthy or good. It means in time something like 4 years.

I think this is the worst English I've ever written -.- Not only am I afraid of this nutrition thing, but I'm also ashamed of today's outcome. This writing was just shit.