I've felt so bad recently but now the darkness has started to fade again. At last. It was so heavy and I found everything so hard. I even had thoughts about dying, even like a small hope... to die. But not anymore. Well not so much like a week ago.
My English is probably nothing but shit right now. I'm so frustrated in my life. I'm so tired and I feel like only sleeping.
Also I'm so fat, how am I this fat???
27 January 2017
9 January 2017
Notebook
I've been thinking that I should buy a notebook for my anxious: I'd write about things I think make me anxious at that moment, what helped, when did I felt it or what happened if there wasn't any? Kind of a diary, I know. Since I have a psychotherapist, I should probably know what to tell and wouldn't it be quite useful to have things written?
Or maybe I just use this blog. I write this random shit here as always and before I have my appointment I'll just do some cursor rolling at this blog page.
Yep, this is my notebook.
Or maybe I just use this blog. I write this random shit here as always and before I have my appointment I'll just do some cursor rolling at this blog page.
Yep, this is my notebook.
To be: Couple of losers
I've gained weight. My boyfriend noticed also that he's gained some weight too. So we decided we could lose some of it together since we've gained it together: So we'll be losers together.
There's so much before/after-photos of people who have been overweight and are still a little overweight in the after and I'm kind of tired of that. But last night I found one instagram user with pictures where she's been just improving her posture! Before and after, weight was almost the same, but she was just more muscular and more beautiful. And what was best in her account: there was a pic with her boyfriend and they had done some sports together and they'd become vegans, how cool is that!
I'm so looking forward to our project! We'll go maybe geocaching or make some walks with our cameras. Personally I'll start doing my own 7 minute trainings at first, then I'll do some Jillian Michaels' workout (maybe 30 day shred) and then I should be in that phase where I can be active without apps or programmes.
Even though I'm enthusiastic about this weight loss thing, I still feel very stressed and anxious. Today I did so many things: I went to school, did some grocery shopping, cooked, studied, did some pre-homework... And there's no thing I should've done today! Still, I feel anxious. Maybe it's because of the future.
There's so much before/after-photos of people who have been overweight and are still a little overweight in the after and I'm kind of tired of that. But last night I found one instagram user with pictures where she's been just improving her posture! Before and after, weight was almost the same, but she was just more muscular and more beautiful. And what was best in her account: there was a pic with her boyfriend and they had done some sports together and they'd become vegans, how cool is that!
I'm so looking forward to our project! We'll go maybe geocaching or make some walks with our cameras. Personally I'll start doing my own 7 minute trainings at first, then I'll do some Jillian Michaels' workout (maybe 30 day shred) and then I should be in that phase where I can be active without apps or programmes.
Even though I'm enthusiastic about this weight loss thing, I still feel very stressed and anxious. Today I did so many things: I went to school, did some grocery shopping, cooked, studied, did some pre-homework... And there's no thing I should've done today! Still, I feel anxious. Maybe it's because of the future.
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