2017 Bucket List

[ ] eat mostly vegan, as much as possible
[ ] stretch on a daily basis
[ ] do some sports regularly: at least 30 minutes three times a week
[ ] don't buy a scale
[ ] be honest with yourself
[ ] tell your thoughts aloud
[ ] cut out some white sugars and carbs
[ ] clean up whole apartment once a month
[ ] do you dishes every day
[ ] move your work-center (laptop, table etc.) away from the bedroom
[ ] ...make your bedroom your place for the rest and peace
[ ] buy some more china
[ ] get your courses done
[ ] get a job for the summer
[ ] remember to have a little summer break! Not only working...
[ ] take care of your plants
[ ] find an interesting minor to study

Plans for Christmas

I'd like to have a cigarette now. This is my first Christmas alone, at my new home. Before I've been abroad or visiting someone, now I'm alone. I've been thinking that I may pay a visit to one friend, if she's in town. But actually that doesn't really bother me, I get to see my fiancee and his family this week and I'll visit my mother on my way to my home. And I'm going to meet my family right after christmas, so it's kind of a delayed holidays here, lol.

I should visit my grandparents but they live quite far away. Does anyone else feel like they should visit their grandparents more often or at least call them?

Anyway, I'll meet people this week, but at Christmas I'll be alone.

Feeling fat

I see myself as a really fat person right now. I feel like my jeans are too small and I don't want to be in any pictures because I seem so huge.

When I think about this, I'm not really that fat. Honestly, I would lose a little weight, but I'm healthy (physically) now. Maybe this feeling is just because of the period bloating. And talking about periods, mine are late. Again. And almost one week late. I've had cramps and my boobs are swollen and sensitive but there's no blood. I want to see blood, I don't want to be pregnant. That would be great.